I'm feeling so depressed. Bad feelings in neither place, at school or at home. I feel sad hearing my dad's word that came across his lips a few months ago, the words kept swirling around in my head, even though I told my self not to think of it, because its only gonna make me sad. But as I say, the words are still swimming around in my head making me feel sad and 'depressed' more to like crying.
A few months ago, me and my parents were sitting down at our living room chatting with each other. As my sister whom just came back from school came in through the door. Suddenly a sentence of word came right out of my dad's lips. "ahhh.. Theres my favorite daughter, just came back from school." It hurts me so bad. after that moment, I tried so hard not to think about it which eventually makes me feel worst and burst out to tears.
I told my mom.. she says, I know why he said that. I don't know why he said that. Why? is it because i'm just sloppily talkative much at home, and just talk about something that isn't interesting at all? And that i'm just so stupider than my younger sis, and that I'm just fatter??? and that i'm just ugly? Is that why? when I look as if I'm just almost crying on the couch, My mom turns again, "I'm sure he didn't mean that."
He didn't mean that? he didn't mean that? he didn't mean that? Ohhh.. I'm sure he means it alot. Because he just said it when i was right in front of him. That he always ask me to do the house chores instead of my sis. That he always ... always ... always..... That he never explains or say that he didn't mean on what he says. He makes me just wanna cry for the little sentence he showed up with after my sis comes back from school.
A few months ago, me and my parents were sitting down at our living room chatting with each other. As my sister whom just came back from school came in through the door. Suddenly a sentence of word came right out of my dad's lips. "ahhh.. Theres my favorite daughter, just came back from school." It hurts me so bad. after that moment, I tried so hard not to think about it which eventually makes me feel worst and burst out to tears.
I told my mom.. she says, I know why he said that. I don't know why he said that. Why? is it because i'm just sloppily talkative much at home, and just talk about something that isn't interesting at all? And that i'm just so stupider than my younger sis, and that I'm just fatter??? and that i'm just ugly? Is that why? when I look as if I'm just almost crying on the couch, My mom turns again, "I'm sure he didn't mean that."
He didn't mean that? he didn't mean that? he didn't mean that? Ohhh.. I'm sure he means it alot. Because he just said it when i was right in front of him. That he always ask me to do the house chores instead of my sis. That he always ... always ... always..... That he never explains or say that he didn't mean on what he says. He makes me just wanna cry for the little sentence he showed up with after my sis comes back from school.
Why? is it?
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