i'm so pathetic..

I'm not able to achieve my goal yet..

cuz I always want it in advance,

and it doesn't work that way,

at the end of the day, I gave up..

I want a 'he' to be by my side,

but I'm just sooo picky,

and of course, who would wanna be

by my side.. right??

I'm not desperate,

but I know, I'm being and acting

like a pathetic shit..

when I'm not suppose to

I told everyone that I've forgotten about him..

and I even act like so.. (I think)

but the truth is, its not entirely...

why do you even exist or made me know you?

I need some very blast motivations..