Today's a lot of Depression

I'm feelin' sooo sooo sooo Gloomy,
I'm sooo sooo sooo lack of Confidence,
I'm sooo sooo sooo keepin' my self as Happy as I could,
but I just couldn't do any else to keep my self Happy...

Maybe, I could only do some with talking on the phone with Aishah,
Cuz I know she understands me...
I know she does,
I know I can count on her when I'm sad...

Just because I'm doing 'bridge'(yoga),
my Mommy is telling me not to do, because she said that I was fat,
just because I was fat?
I know I'm fat..

and my sister starts talking,
she says that my mommy was just telling the truth,
cuz my mom said that it could crack up my bone.
What the Heck???

hello!
I'm so used to doing 'bridge' already,
I've been doing it since last year...
and its Yoga, yoga is good for health.

and yes, I talk to much..
but, even soo...
Its my nature, I don't talk too much that it could actually distract you,
Just just.
Something that I'm depressed,
Something I do, when I have problems.
or when I'm not satisfied with something.

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My aunt says that I have to stop doing it,
cuz she said that its annoying,
I tried to listen,
but truthfully,
The more I tried to listen to her, the more I'm hurt into..

I forgotten about it now,
but my sister talks about it again,
and yet,
she gets the wrong idea..
She thinks that my aunt was telling that I talk to much bout just a talk,
not a reply on talk.

i'm upset,
I think people hates me as much as they hates Sh**ts.
because they look at me like they doo..
because they talk to me like they don't even like me at all.

I want my kak Ati back.
i wanna talk to her bout my problems,
I wanna cry on shoulders bout my sadness..
I want her back!

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My aunts talk to me like they don't wanna,
and they talk to sarah Like they love to talk to her..
Do they? like her that much? Don't they? like me at all?
answer me, this all needed an aswer to settle down..